'Pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain...'
My friend Rosemary over at Ozma of Odds has a little saying at the top of her blog.
'Musings from the girl behind the lace curtain'
I feel kind of like that.
Like I am there- behind that curtain and I pull it aside occasionally
and share a bit but a lot stays behind that curtain.
I often say that I am like 'Bob' in 'What About Bob'
I baby step my way through things....
a little here, and an inch more there...
I find myself arriving somewhere eventually...
but not because I ran a race full steam ahead to get there
but because I timidly moved in that direction.
I started my blog to keep myself immersed in being creative.
A place to fuel some of my bigger goals and dreams.
A place to be surrounded by all the incredibly creative people out there in the blogs
To be inspired and to hopefully inspire others.
For 6 months I posted just a handful of times
and my sweet sister Taylor who was my one and only follower commented (Love you Tay!)
I didn't really 'blog'. I didn't feel creative. I didn't feel more immersed.
I had nothing that spurred me to blog...or to create or to write.
Until one day last June.
Some of you know how very close Grammy and I were.
She had advanced dementia by June and was further away than ever.
Though she was here physically, I was missing her greatly.
Missing our talks and her words of wisdom and guidance.
I wanted to share joys, the memories, dreams with her.
My oldest child was graduating High School and I was so incredibly proud.
but... I paused just a little.
How could that little 7 lb baby be this big grown up young man standing before me ?
How had 18 years already gone by since he was born?
My younger children are just a few short years behind him and all of a sudden
my identity as a mother felt like it was starting to become a shadow.
I wondered...
Who would I be when my children were grown up and didn't need me as much?
It's safe to say that I was having just a wee bit of an identity crisis
and for the first time in awhile...
I needed to write
and to create.
Honestly, over the past year,
this little blog has been my salvation.
My world to go to for a reason to create.
To write and to get lost in a different place occasionally.
A place where I have met some very very good friends.
A place where I really feel for the first time in so many years
I have been able to spread my little old creative wings and dust them off a bit.
So... I consider July my blogiversary.
July was the very first time I pulled that curtain aside just a little bit more
and looked out and didn't just stick my toes in the water...
I jumped in
holding my breath
expecting that I would sink...
But I found warm waters and lots of support in the waves as they came.
So I just want to thank you all so much for your support and friendship
and for taking the time to read what this girl puts out there.
I am amazed every day at how incredible this blogging community is
and honored that you include my blog in your reading list.
:)
(uhmmm... I seriously feel so. darn. naked. right now.)
So let's just get to the GIVEAWAY to celebrate my blogiversary...
I have a
fabulous giveaway coming your way!!
Oh I just had the most fun this afternoon !
I am sooo excited about it!!!
You are going to LOVE it!
I can't wait to tell you what it is!
See you tomorrow!
;)